Alone in a room full of people.
They huddle around me, the ones I
beloved But their faces are in a muddle, and I
seem to be scolded
The darkness surrounds me, my eyes
are a blur
And all other words are weird, in a slur
I suffocate on the thickness of silence realizing, I must adapt and start breathing
out of my nose
I am suddenly frightened realizing the
decision I chose
Lonely in a room full of people.
They offer support, understanding but under those softened eyes, is a scowl of
disapproval
They want to help but also turn their
backs, when I’m in bad health all my
feelings are unpacked
The moment I’m sad, scared or in need,
no one seems to be there to take the lead
Isolated in a room full of people.
Backed up into a corner with no escape,
the only way out is to self isolate
I run past the familiar yet now unfamiliar
faces filled with disgust
Running flailing my arms I simply thrust…
thrust…thrust!
Push past the madness to find some
gladness but all I find at the other side of
the green pasture, is sadness…
Betrayed in a room full of people.
Life is about the balance, the highs and
the lows
But when no one can be happy for the
highs, the saying really blows
Look around at their smiling faces, one
moment excited for you the next moment
enraged
You try to pull them closer to get them
engaged, but they pull away from you Screaming “GET AWAY!”
You’re always happy for others, always
positive, when you feel like you’ve been
kicked in the gut this feeling is repetitive
Betrayal will prevail when all else fails, so
stop trying to crawl on the rails the train
will come and its obstacle derailed.
Defeated in a room full of people.
Like a little bug, I sit squashed on my bed
All the hurtful words, spinning around in
my head
I feel belittled like my feelings are
unimportant
Too tired to keep swimming in the deep,
deep scary ocean.
I have no life rings to pull me afloat
What’s the use of drifting along if I’m in
some sinking boat?
Misunderstood in a room full of people.
Thousands of people are accessible to me
but will any of them really understand how
to make me perceive things properly?
It’s always my fault and I’m always in the
wrong, never trying hard enough just
skidding along
But I try my hardest no matter what’s
wrong plaster on a fake smile just to
continue along
But I’m still not tough enough, too soft, in
a negative cycle that’s been endured long
enough
I’m disturbed in a room of people.
My heart beats, my body sleeps my mind
races
My consciousness distracted my cheeks flushed,
my nose stuffed
My ears ring. What’s happening?
That’s a recurring question that will never
be answered it just keeps suggesting
SUDDENLY
my legs stop kicking,
my arms stop diving,
my feel stop paddling,
my body stops floating,
my nose stops breathing,
my mind stops spinning,
I start drowning.
My only way of survival is to be alone
solemnly, but that doesn’t stop me from
being lonely.
And then they wonder why I’m always by
myself.
Please give a detailed explanation about the meaning and main idea of this poem.:
This poem represents the feelings of being alone when facing challenges and overcoming obstacles of adolescence. It is about finding inner strength and reconciling with these challenges.
Please explain your writing and thought process regarding this poem.:
This is an expression piece. The poem describes what many of us feel or cannot sometimes verbalize or express.
Why did you choose to write this poem?:
This poem was meant as a personal reflection piece. Initially, it was an outlet to write down feelings. It is liberating to write down feelings and reach out to others through my writing, inviting them to reflect on their feelings as well.
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